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SARAHAY
Friday, September 30
12:17 AM
sometimes i want a little more. little more than what you can give me, little more than what you expect of me. but everytime you give a little more, i turn my back and run. will this cycle never end. a picture perfect relationship is sweet, the rush of a forbidden fling tastes even better. people ask, "why are you like this. why are you so negative when it comes to falling in love?" i'm not negative. i just hate the burden that comes with loving a person. a girl in a relationship worries too much. mindless chatter in her head like "is he cheating on me? how come he never calls me? doesn't he love me anymore?" i have enough in my head, i don't need more to flood my brain. sure, i love the sugar coated romances where my prince charming sweeps me off my feet and rides off to his white palace. roses and inpromptu signs of affections. all the little details that just make me think, "wow, will this last forever?" of course not. nobody tells you what happens after snow white and her prince gets married. flirtings by the well and true love's first kiss, the honeymoon period, which couple hasn't experienced it all. but after he gets the princess, does he still display such loving signs of affection? i think not. i wonder if snow white sits on her throne thinking, "where is charming today? riding off to save some other damsel with an apple lodged down her throat?" love is tricky. i don't hate love. forbidden flings always taste better because of the fear of getting caught. you appreciate and treasure every minute but once its over, you move on. enjoy the whirlwind love and run off before the burdens of a relationship drags you down. selfish? maybe. but this way nobody gets hurt. get your feelings straight out so you both know what game you guys are playing. the idea of forbidden, makes me think back of a situation i experienced a long time ago. there was something going on between us. but nobody knew then, just me and him. even though there were barely ten people in the room, to me, it felt like a crowd. so near yet so far. come to think of it my behaviour in my previous relationships were somewhat naive. i love you forever. what a load of bull. perhaps i was like the other girls, love was oxygen. i filled my brain with useless thoughts and now, whenever i think back, i would have wanted to go back in time and slap myself silly. i see my previous self in one of my friend's girlfriend. she needs it so much, but her boyfriend just can't give enough of it to her. it by the way, is time and affections for all you pervertic people out there.the night air is filled with curious things. they make you wonder more than you want to.