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Monday, November 28
1:04 AM
congrats to ALWIN TEO YUMING as his team got in 3rd for the Singapore Poly cyber games competition! go check out this link [singapore poly comp] and look out for his team NewEdge. hoho, somebody is commander! thanks a million alwin for all the songs you sent to me! i promise i will try my very best to go for your other competitions. haha, you know what i hope to see on the huge LCD screen!
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Friday, November 25
1:23 AM
elsa is making me put a * next to her link. apparently its HOT STUFF. yeah right. but since i love her to pieces. i will. ha. THE THINGS I DO FOR YOU. i really cant think of any reason to be blogging. teased xiangzhong to death yesterday. his hair was so floppy and he looked so skinny. he looked like some drug addict. no offence to vina and xiang. but seriously cut your hair boy. and put on some weight. you look like you were swimming in your shirt. watched prime today, it was alright, although the beginning was dead boring. i wont say it was dead stupid, at least i was pretty entertained by it. the only movie im looking forward to now its PRIDE AND PREJUDICE. i cant wait to watch. DECEMBER 8TH! time to let myself loose in the world of mr darcy and elizabeth bennett's whirlwind romance.
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Tuesday, November 22
12:49 PM
what the fuck. you know i dont like hearing and knowing shit like that and still you tell me. no wonder im always feeling annoyed. fuck this shit. i dont care anymore.
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Sunday, November 20
12:36 AM
i dont conform to the average girl. okay, maybe not the average girl, but you know what i mean. some girls tend to be very indecisive, easily persuaded and submissive. but i'm not. never will i let myself become like that. i know what i want and how to get it. whenever i say that i dont want to do something, i mean it, so piss off. if i want to press on, i will. until you tell me the answer im looking for. i just feel so irritated lately. i dont know why, but im picking on the slightest thing. something happened recently and it taught me to always be mentally prepared, and let my guards stay up. letting it down only makes me vulnerable. vulnerable to everything around me. so i rather keep it up always, so no one can ever see the inside. then nothing can hurt me. then perhaps, i'll feel better. im balancing on a thin line here. im not sure if you can catch me if i fall.
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Saturday, November 19
11:09 AM
standard lines - dashboard confessionalwhich of the bold faced lies will we use? i hope that you're happy, you really deserve it, this will be the best for us both in the end. but your taste still lingers on my lips like I just placed them upon yours and I starve for you. but this new diet's liquid and dulling to the senses. and it's crude but it will do. which of the standard lines will we use? i've been meaning to call you. i've just been so busy. we'll catch up soon. Let's make it a point to.
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1:55 AM
for some strange reason, on this saturday morning at 0156am, i feel like eating bak choy (white stemmed vegetables). so terribly hungry. thats all. im just really hungry. the things we'll never say, the things we'll never reveal.
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Wednesday, November 16
5:25 PM
popped by ij yesterday to get my cmath tutorials back from erictan. his car looks surprisingly clean. there's only one stack of newspapers sitting prim on the passenger seat, not wallpapered all over. all the secondary fours were doing their amaths paper, pouring over tricky trigo questions and "if a car travels in a direction away from the city" (RELATIVE VELOCITY in case you'd forgotten.) cant help but trigger off the memory of me and my fellow foursixers, doing our dreaded amath paper in the hot and stuffy classroom. its been one year. how have we changed. the rain is killing my PLANS! thanks elsa so much for helping me today. HA, i have a feeling we're going to be doing this alot. ah the sacrifices of being best friends.
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Tuesday, November 15
12:34 AM
its quite sad to live on $45 till the end of the month. its just three dollars a day. considering the fact that i go out so often, and everytime i go out, i spy a new item that i'd love to have. guess there's only one solution. MUST STOP GOING OUT. the only flaw in my plan is that i never seem to listen to myself. while my sister and her boyfriend is getting huggy on the sofa, i shall attempt to watch the documentry on world war two. trying very hard to not stare at them. good god. of all places.im not really a jazz/blues person, but there's one michael buble song that i really love. it always manages to put me in the mood to cuddle up with my loved one. wait, scratch that. what loved one? i might actually be sleeping early tonight. what a change, usually i sleep at three or four am. those late night marathons has taken its toll on me. Tell me when will you be mineTell me quando quando quando
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Sunday, November 13
12:15 AM
spent my day at elsa's house today. attempted to have a movie marathon topped with pizza but we just got lazy and started to just talk about everything. she's thrilled she's the first to know. haha, don't say a thing you bitch.i love hanging out in elsa's room. but that woman doesnt believe in cleaning. her clothes are strewn everywhere and her bags are thrown everywhere. who on earth can see her floor. you practically have to leap over her mess and squeeze between her cupboards. duplex was hilarious. what a twist in the end. okay, its not really a twist, but it was pretty funny. little black book sucked cause it was trailer trash. els' siblings Portia and Zachery were so cute. every five minutes they would call for me. awww. in a sweet kinda three year old voice you know? not like in my family where they scream, "JAMIE WHERE THE FUCK IS THE MAGAZINE?! WHAT THE FUCK? YOU WERE THE LAST TO READ IT!" good god, i hate my house. counting the days till december 13. when i can finally talk on the phone, blast the radio and read till the wee hours of the morning in the comfort of my own bedroom. never will i have to hear my siblings whine, "jamie, off the light." "jamie, stop talking on the phone, i need to sleep" "jamie, the music is too loud." ah screw off. since now four of us kids share a bedroom, i have chosen to shift out of that hell hole of a room. fuck, FOUR IN A ROOM. so now i sleep in the living room, where the phone, tv and computer is placed. hell, i think i will sleep here till the thirteenth. i cant stand listening to all of them whine. furthermore, its kinda like my own room out here. at least i have no one nagging at me. elsa wants her chair with arm rests. i want my bed with a metal backing. grrr. you know what i mean. maybe me and my bus stop buddy should try it, ha.
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Thursday, November 10
9:20 PM
project work is finally over. after labouring for around six months, i can officially throw all the sheets of paper vaguely resembling anything on birth defects. i've lost the mood to blog. there really isn't anything worth saying. not unless you count the fact that my new computer recently HANGED. fuck, i swear its just my family and computers. all computers seem to crumble under our touch.oh, went to shop, sorry, WINDOW shop, at GUESS yesterday. its quite depressing to see so many 'must haves' that i will never be able to afford, seeing that i pretty much busted my allowance the last time i went shopping with elsa. the purple cami, the white flowy skirt, the victorian blouse and of course, the maroon fur coat. oh well, christmas anyone?
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Tuesday, November 8
10:26 PM
finally after eons of suffering without my own computer, my dad finally got off his ass and decided to BUY a new one. so insanely happy i will kiss the plasma screen. pw is coming up on thursday, just TWO more days before i can destroy the thought of ever going back to school. save for getting information for my holiday homework. which is still untouched. do you believe in second chances?
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Thursday, November 3
9:18 PM
my mother is mad. she keeps stuffing me with food thinking that i'm always hungry. no wonder i'm fat. with a mother like mine, no one will ever be slim. pw presentation was horrendous. when im nervous, i talk at the speed of a speeding bullet. imagine 15words/second. or something like that. good god, my stomach hurts so badly now. pw presentation again tomorrow, and this time i hope it turns out better. i cant wait till then tenth where everything will finally be over. but i have an insane pile of holiday homework just sitting in a corner, waiting paitently to be done. what kind of a holiday is this. halfway through a presentation, t9 blasted an old beegees' that i LOVE.and you may not think I care for you when you know down inside that I really do
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Tuesday, November 1
9:19 PM
anti halloween party at newsroom bar was damn fucking screwed. getting in was such a problem that i nearly wanted to just go somewhere else. the deejay was so irritating i wanted to ram the pole up his sorry annoying ass. dont remember much, just remembered vivek and his stupid actions (what can you expect from our dear vivek). went in with the girls but barely spent two hours with them. the club was so crowded and messed up. as usual, had my toes stomped on by elsa again. but i drank alot and danced enough. the dance floor was so hot that the outside sidewalks looked more attractive. one of the things i remember is vivek spilling jackdaniels and coke all over my top. dumbfuck, im going to get you for that.