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SARAHAY
Thursday, October 13
1:30 PM
sean is damn young. he plays with stuffed toys. good god you CHILD! but he's cool man, use, abuse and lose. you know what i'm talking about. school is a waste of time nowadays. its just constant project work and the on going thought of the promos results. its scary to think that in just four days more, it would determine our lives for the years to come. okay, maybe not. exaggeration isn't helping right now. but school seriously is sucking me dry and its wasting my time. i'm only there to stone with my friends and sleep during lessons. been drinking alot lately and my friend said that i should just might as well shove a knife in my liver and twist it around. ha, i supposed that is the same as drinking shots. but drinking gives me the high i crave whenever i feel lost. the retreat is coming and i have zero mood to go. i don't even know the details yet. as usual, i lost the "THINGS YOU NEED TO HAVE" sheet and will have no choice but to call melissa for the details. this is depressing. i have to travel so far just to use the computer at my friend's house. i'm suffering from withdrawal symptoms cause this is the first time my laptop and my main computer died together. a conspiracy i tell you! to deprive the lee family children of not having a computer to vent our frustration and cure our boredom.ian thinks my nails look plastic. do they look plastic to you? oh well, i need to cut them soon, its getting fucking annoying. my life is quite messed up now, whether i like it or not. i love for things to be cleared up but i'm tired to always be the one instigating. i don't want to be the man.